Category: writing

  • 026p: small talk on an elevator.

    small talk on an elevator.
    suddenly we’ve become
    engrossed about the weather
    and the sports teams
    and golf. golf. everyone
    plays golf, and they talk
    about it like it is
    a nuanced game.
    i sigh (in my head)
    and write poems to no one.

  • 025p: note to mike m. on the way back to work

    do you remember me,
    winding through
    labyrinthine hallways
    to attend your audition?
    it’s okay if you don’t;
    a brief speck in a life
    met with many faces.
    such investment goes
    into passing people you
    kind of know on the street.
    in a mote of time
    a thousand calculations
    beyond the wisdom of robots
    cycles through your head,
    and by the time you
    come to a conclusion–
    it’s too late. they’re gone.
    and you keep walking.

  • 024p: haiku to salad

    it’s such bullshit that
    you make me feel better than
    a bunch of cookies

  • 023p: portland

    gray encroaches on the city,
    pelting pavement with rain.
    curlicues of fog and steam
    from the tops of buildings
    intermingle. the city is alive.
    i feel the wetness from my jacket
    draped over the back of my chair,
    my ergonomic chair, my chair
    built to enhance my work ability.
    socialism within a capitalist
    context; provide assistance
    to create the best worker,
    not the best human.
    the landscape is foggy and gray.
    perpetual portland. the top
    of wells fargo scrapes
    the bottom of the clouds.
    no finite line between them,
    like lovers in tangles.

  • 022p: sick of it

    i’m sick of living on 174th
    sick of feeling in the shadow
    of those i should be kin to.
    sick of wasting years
    locked in depression
    and anxiety. i long
    to grasp the clouds with
    warm fingers and palms
    stretched. they say that
    tall men die sooner than
    short men. my life expectancy
    is 64. 30 years left. 30 years
    to find something to
    hold onto and someone
    to hold onto it with.
    i’m sick of hating the
    brunt of my day. sick of
    hating myself. tired of
    finding meaning.
    i make the meaning.
    i make it now.
    i foster it and i coddle it
    and i whisper things to it
    that i would never say
    out loud. i am encrusted
    in depression, and breaking
    through requires immense
    pain and pushing.
    i will push. i will pain.
    i will watch the sunrise
    for leisure instead of
    from a MAX train to work.

  • 021p: 10 years ago

    this morning the MAX feels
    like it did when i visited
    10 years ago. a sense of promise.
    a newness from the gray sky
    and thin rivulets of rainwater
    descending from the glass.
    10 years ago i was with you,
    a brief important moment,
    a catalyst for the next part
    of my life. a flash in the pan.
    we built it up like stone-by-stone,
    but it could never hold back
    the floor. the flood that
    came fast, drowned deep,
    and receded too quickly.
    i treaded water when
    i should have drowned
    with you.

  • 020p: did you, at all, take this?

    did you, at all, take this?
    did you wrap this around
    the beating heart
    you flaunt in that flaccid vessel?
    when you walk you defy air,
    you teeter at the edge
    of extremity and cost,
    carefully calculating all
    calumny you dispense
    at the expense of others.
    when you take this,
    you take all of this.
    and everyone wonders
    if you’ll ever give it back.

  • 019p: wordplay 1

    some type of captive undulation,
    she in limnal dreamlike capture
    cries out a desperate hymn
    to the understars. fortuitous,
    then, the dismal winsome shadows
    wrapped along the walls, pulsing
    with life, fluttering like
    entrenched eyelids against a brocade
    of fine silk, lashes caught
    in the undertow.

  • 018p: poop poem

    if i poop–
    and poop i shall–
    i hope i poop
    in chaparral,
    for poop on plains
    is plainly shitty
    and poop on streets
    is for the city.
    so thus i seek
    a shrub or bush,
    to hide the poop
    dropped from my tush,
    and bush or shrub
    i hope and pray
    hath leaf enough
    to wipe away…the poop.

  • 017p: llama

    trevor, drenched in turgid drama
    drafted terms to buy a llama
    with his former girlfriend (note
    the “former” in that bit i wrote).
    the terms were: one, it must remain
    outside in sun or snow or rain,
    no matter what it’s disposition
    their roommates would be fairly pissed ‘n
    stuff; two, a fifty-fifty share
    of which of them would have to care
    for this enormous beast they bought–
    of parentage he hadn’t thought
    too far ahead; and three, of course,
    for this was nothing like a horse,
    they’d shave it every single spring
    and use the wool to knit some things
    to sell at random marketplaces
    turning frowns to smiley faces.
    this, his girlfriend did decree
    was worth the shit propelled by he
    into the fan of dating life.
    one llama fixes every strife.